More Middle School: Girls to Girls
My recollection of the time is that I liked being around boys, but that I really didn't want to do anything more with any of them. After all, I wasn't supposed to date until I was 16. I clearly wasn't very good at expressing and explaining this prohibition because I ended up conducting weird flirtations with boys I didn't really like, which resulted in awkward kisses I didn't really enjoy and then "breakups" I felt guilty about after--and then, in eighth grade, I started hanging out more with the less popular crowd who liked to read and write stories about dragons and robots, and everything got a lot better.
So, two notes from girls below the fold, spelling and grammar carefully preserved.
1. From a childhood friend who at the time of this note, in 6th grade, was pretty and popular.
Hi, I'm in a big mess. I ♥ F., but he's mean to me, writes notes to other people saying bad things about me (I saw one) + he goes on dates with other girls! He blew up when I wore S.'s starter.* He said wearing a starter symbolizes true ♥ then I find out 1) He won't let me wear his 2) He let B. and Y. wear it!
But after all this, I still ♥ him! What should I do? Well enough about me let talk about you! You don't really ♥ C., you ♥ M. But you just don't want me to embarras you...right!? OK well if that's the case I'll try not to embarass you! I'm just trying to help you flirt!! Sorry for being a friend! Well as you can see I need mental help.... HELP!
P.S. I actually wrote you!
2. From the ur-pretty-and-popular girl in 7th grade, the girl everybody else's notes talked about. This might be the only note I ever got from her.
Hi Sweetie! What's New? What's up? What's down? Holly shit everything in the world is down with me!! I mean seriously there are knew guys at this stupid fucking school!
I mean I guess some guys are cute but really there are either total nerds or your two close of friends to do anything with them! But I guess we'll just have to wait!!!! So who do you like? About the slambook** your not exactly a Prude! You'll just have to do something with someone, soon, REAL soon! Well sorry this note is so stupid & boring But Hey I'm a stupid & Boring Kinda gal!
Love Ya Lots,
Marginalia: "Life is 2 short" "[Middle School X] sucks" "A teenage love!" "I ♥ ?" "[Middle School Y] rules" "Guess products -4-ever!!" "Keep it cool" "Keds" "Fila" "Troop" "N.W.A" "Eazy-E" "Esprit"
*Starter jackets were an important commodity in 6th and 7th grade. They were lightly insulated bomber jacket-style windbreakers with various sports teams insignias. Maybe the boys cared about who wore which team's jacket, but the girls looked for 1) does he have one, 2) is it a hideous color, and 3) will he let me wear it. It would have been unthinkable for a girl to buy her own because the whole point of wearing a Starter jacket was that some boy loant it to you.
**There was a bit about a slambook in the note I typed up last post (which I mislabelled as being a sixth grade note), and, fortunately, I found a barely completed slambook in my files, so I can explain what the hell this was. Basically, it was a bound notebook, each page of which had a quiz question, like "which girl is pretty?" or "what do you think about A.?" Each person was supposed to sign in on the first page, and then, as the slambook circulated, everyone got to guessing about who wrote which response. I'm guessing, from the pseudo-solicitous notes and from the slambook that abruptly stopped circulating and landed into my files, that I didn't enjoy this practice.